11/30/98 She's mine... She's allllll mine!! hahahah! The car is mine! Well, not yet, anyway. But I got the loan, at a thankfully good interest rate, and now all I have to do is the fun part.. ha! Three months of hard work has finally paid off. 11/15/98 Ok, so you see these really cool looking fairy pics on my website here. I found them "out there", and that got me on a fairy kick again. I went to a bunch of fae sites, and I noticed that "Adopt-A-Fairy" seemed to be a very popular theme. Except most are really lame, at least the ones I saw. The fairies are either cheezy PaintBrush drawings in 16 colors, or stolen from obvious places (Tinkerbell, Gnomes, etc.). And all you get is the graphic. Fairies aren't all about a visual, and when they are, they are more real than life, not 16-color. So I got this really great idea, except the only problem is, I'm not artist. When I think of adopting a fairy, I think of taking on this unique little personality, and taking care of it. It would have a little bio, a list of likes and dislikes, and a reason it needs to be adopted. You know, kind of a bit like Cabbage Patch Kids used to be, only a little more detailed, almost like a short story, and consistant with a certain "universe". Participants could browse through a list of fairies, reading each bio, and choosing carefully. And it would be for a very good cause. As any beleiver of fae knows, the fae are the stuff of dreams. When we stop believing, the fae die. And the fae are quickly dying. By adopting a fairy who's personality and character is so believable, we would be helping to save their entire race. It would be a Save the Fae Campaign. Again, I'm no artist, and I don't know any personally (at least not that would be interested in creating fairies), but I'd love to co-op with someone to make a truly remarkable fairy adoption agency. Interested? Email me. Hopefully I can hold this dream long enough to play it out. 11/29/98 Well, I went out just after making comments about a Save The Fairies Campaign, and found out that someone else had already beat me to it. Except they don't have any really cool fairies to adopt or anything like that, but they do have a link and some nice fairy link pictures. I still think it would be cool to have an adopt a fairy program with cool pics and little bios about each fairy... That having been said, I would just like to remind everyone how much love sucks. I'm still without a honey, and I'm not sure why. If I wanted just anyone, there are a few willing candidates, but I'm being choosy this time. Someone last night pointed out to me that I must want what I can't have. Usually, I start falling in love with someone just before they move to Seattle, a locale I happen to live four hours away from. A place I have been dreaming of moving to for about four years. A place which eludes me. And so do the guys that move there. The guy might be around for a long time, and I hardly notice him, and then one night, I'll be talking to him, and think, "I hadn't noticed, but this guy is great!"... Then he tells me he's moving in a week or the next day because he's got a few more years of school or a job or something. Anyway, it was Thanksgiving this week, and there was a big dance thing on Saturday. I've been looking forward to the return of my latest "He's in Seattle and I'm not!" for two months now. I had a little party Friday night, and called him up to invite him, and he cherrily said he'd be here... He didn't show. "Well," I thought, "surely he'll be at the dance..." He wasn't. Sigh. I think I'll give up, and let life go where it wants to take me. On a more cheery note, since I am trying to be more optimistic (something at which I'm failing miserably), I should have a shiney new car soon, and so maybe someday soon, I'll have enough in order that I can move to Seattle, not only for the larger pool of males to draw from, but for the culture, things to do on weekends, and big-city fast life. I'm going to make it there, unless I'm not meant to get there.